I have really slowed down on my Cardioid Shawl.
Why do I do this? I did it on the Itchy-Scratchy sweater... I did it on the Juno Regina wrap ... looking over the years, I can think of lots of projects that I quit knitting on. Lately, I've been knitting on only one project at a time, so when I quit, it means I also quit knitting. I read, I surf the net, I do housework, I find almost anything to do besides knit.
(begin whiney voice)
It's so hard, and the rows are so long, and there's counting, lots of counting, and I can't figure it out when it's not right, it's too harrrrrddddddd....
(end whiney voice)
But I've got to knit. Now I feel like I must finish one thing before going on to another. I've become one of those knitters ... a one-project-at-a-time knitter, who uses up my leftover yarn before going on to another project. It's weird. I feel like asking myself, "Who are you, and what did you do with the knitter who used to live here?!?"
The half-knitted Things in my Bins of Mystery upstairs are monuments to the way I used to be. I feel like finishing them or unraveling them (if they're knit on circular needles), a few at a time, three or four a year, and getting them all finished up. I feel like giving my yarn away every time someone who knits needs a birthday or Christmas gift, a skein or two here, a hank or a ball there, to get rid of it, and then when I have no more bins of yarn, I can buy more, one project at a time, knitting it all up before buying more.
Is this a phase? Is the half of my brain that I fried the less responsible half? I feel like I don't want more than one project at a time, because that's all I can handle, and it makes me nervous to knit two or three -- or more, like seven or eight -- projects at once. Part of that was that I had to get them done by a deadline; they were for Christmas or the knitting cruise or a class or the knitting weekend, so I had to knit them, but still. I guess that's why I have so many unfinished knits put away. They were just for me, things that I wanted to make, not things I needed to make.
Looking at it that way makes me smile. My new outlook means that if I don't want to make it, I don't have to, and I'm just now beginning to get that. Feels good.
So it's time to get off my butt and finish my Cardioid Shawl. That's the only way you're gonna get ahead, missy, so quit moping around and get knitting!